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Thank you for visiting Soul Forte's Issue 20, featuring writing by Tanja Kummerfeld, Leatrice Evanne Asher, Leonore Wilson, Durell Desmond, Stephanie Ross, Roxanne Noor, Steve Cushman, Tracy Ahrens, Brian McAllister, David Dephy, Jacob Grussing, David Block, and Lessie Ehrhardt. May you read and resurrect.
Love Poem
Fill up my heart with love,
it’s been frozen for so long.
Ice is in its DNA.
My coldness comes naturally.
So, fire up every ounce of me.
But stop—I’ll do it myself.
Cuddle up and watch as I am
slowly melting. Love doesn’t
come naturally for everyone.
But it does come eventually.
Why I Hate Mother’s Day
For A. K.
I hate Mother’s Day . . .
Maybe hate is a strong word—
but it reminds me of all the things
my mother didn’t do.
When I hear a friend or colleague tell me about
something special she did on that day or asks me what I did.
I just hang my head and mumble: We don’t have that kind
of relationship.
But I am jealous, too, and think that I would
like to be that kind of daughter.
However, I don’t want to put on a show anymore.
I am not the motherly type either and sometimes
I wonder, if I am too harsh with my mother.
That I should cut her some slack, too.
That nurturing comes easily to some people
While for others it is the hardest part.
Maybe I am that kind of daughter—now.
I am on Vacation
From my old self,
from my old soul,
The doctor is not
in right now.
Putting my own needs first, like
In the proverbial plane where you
Help yourself first and then others.
Leave it to the Gods to
Handle the rest.
They will know what to do.
Don’t you ever worry.
Tanja Kummerfeld studied American and Italian Literature at the Universities of Hamburg and
Delaware. She is currently on a journey and doesn’t know yet where it will take her. Writing and
painting are ways of exploration for her. She is interested in the interactions of words and images
and how creativity is a tool to foster healing.
The Nearness of Tomorrow
What now
wintered body,
the tug
of leave-taking
day
after
day—
a countdown’s hum
before launch
from Earth’s granularity.
Asked to unhinge
willingly from tomorrow—
will you,
when the call comes
abruptly hurling you
beyond
words for everything?
Shoes Left Behind
Crossing the threshold
from mere existence
into the infinite—
no within or without,
no edges, no matter.
A thought of planetary sod
could return me to fragile solidity—
ephemeral particles of gravity—
but the mind space empties
refusing the birth of form.
Feet dangling
above Earth’s pull—
its familiar weight—
I choose the never-ending.
Shoes left behind.
Perennial Spring
Boom—
the sound of ending
catapults me
out of my socket,
the humming hub of my heart
slipping into silence
beyond the cradle of bone and breath,
the hollow tide of my cellular sea.
Freed from laws
of cytoplasm and pulse,
the weight of nothing,
the fullness of everything,
as it has always been
beneath the skin of time,
I hear the voice
of all voices—
a bottomless
singularity:
Come along,
Come along now
foreverness
to the Perennial Spring.
There I go
knowing I was always awake,
dreaming my way.
I've Known Heaven
Disbelief of eyes and ears was required
to partake in ongoing life
of the family as the sun kept rising
to another day of make-believe.
Unable to pretend,
no place to land,
sanity was sought in gritty places—
treks into Hell
where truth often burns brighter
in the heat of fire.
Scraping away encrustations—
tall tales hardening reality
into bony spurs—
came the knowing of Heaven.
Not an Elysian field
coruscating hill and dale,
outflowing celestial ethers
intended only for the blessed.
No—so utterly ordinary,
this birthright of all,
you will laugh out loud
as the world of God stares back at you
from wherever you stand.
It will be known when seen.
Nothing is hidden.
Nothing is beyond.
Leatrice Evanne Asher, now an octogenarian, has been writing for more than sixty years. Leatrice wrote the first three poems above after having a heart attack. Her articles exploring self-knowledge have appeared in numerous publications. During her earlier years of writing, some of her poetry was also published. She makes her home in Santa Cruz, California. Reach out and learn more at leatricea.com.
Fall Geese Wild in Flight
for my mother
From the porch at dusk
she watches
fall geese wild in flight
one could announce
as joy
for she once walked
the creek bed
as a child splashing
against the water’s
dimming face
like a skipped pebble
passing on
down
out of sight
and still
she could hear splashes
farther and farther
away
then as it grew darker
she returned
the same ancestral path
as her shadow
beyond the cottonwoods
and willows
as splashes went on
out of hearing
for it was darker then
somewhere
where night
accompanied her
into some earthly heaven
she was headed for . . .
Tremendum, Augustum
Matter’s power consoles: take for instance
the woodpecker’s tongue, how it whips around
the little Jerusalem of his brain, then darts out quite suddenly--
sweet-swoop flame, incandescent god . . . this is
wisdom’s dizziness, what the depressive forgets
as he rotates daily in the unending asura of thought, . . .
Heavy rain all winter, then up from the herculean depths, numinous lilies
like dulcet-toned instruments: harps, zithers, flutes--
the fugitive fabric of what is ineffable, daunting, as when
one evening the lonely astronomer stared out
into the quotidian universe and discovered the region of space
beyond Neptune where vast numbers of small icy
objects circle the sun in cold storage; such is the over-abounding
trace of survival, the majestus energy that beckons
the diminution of self analogous to the morning when trying to make love
the couple were simply too distracted by the exalted song
of the May bird, a western tanager perhaps—ruddy orange jester
gleaning its way from oak to conifer as the beatific heat in the sky
intensified, so they abandoned their inchoate ritual, and lay there
apart in humble submergence and private devotion . . .
First Thought
Hidden in the wheat-ear red-lily white rose,
acrid berries of summer,
the bark-bitten-into by the wild goat--
First thought sacred thought soul
impassioned that bursts from stars--
What mystery remains in the print of my hand,
my unbound hair like a slow river
silver-threaded with dark--
Thought haunts the groves like a dryad,
as lamps burn thin in pause
and counter-pause a fever in song-notes--
Is thought stronger than love or did love
invent thought--
And does the alchemist transmute thought’s
message translate
I am here like a caged bird untrapped
or a snake giving shape upon shape in a ray
of gilded light on the listening air--
And who struck the spark in the formless
and made the soul awaken
in the stream small and terrible
holding the white dust of memory
in the summer-dew
and late rain-fall of autumn--
Leonore Wilson is a college English and creative writing teacher from Northern California. She is on the MFA Board at St Mary’s College of California. Leonore’s work has been in The Iowa Review, Unruly Catholic Women Writers, Trivia: Voices of Feminism, Third Coast, Prairie Schooner, Quarterly West, Upstreet, Madison Review, Laurel Review, Pif, and elsewhere. Her historic cattle ranch and family home in Napa Valley were recently destroyed in the LNU fire.
Air
A love that knows no bounds, and is as free as the currents of the wind
A love that cannot be grounded, nor contained
A love that is freeing, that breathes
Durell Desmond is an amateur poet without a background in the arts. During his time working as an environmental scientist, he whimsically wrote poetry focusing on the themes of nature, humanity, spirituality, and family.
Fingers Together with Invisible Pearls
in my palms
I open to sky & ground
and offer precious gifts
to unseen dragons
I bend my body
to moons I cannot see &
embrace them in my chest
holding quiet
I turn & face
a new direction
stretching into the Universe
as I gather into myself
I light pearls of wisdom
with my gratitude
as stillness transforms
into the movement of Shen
awaking the unspoken
with silence
_____
In honour of my Ren Yuan practice (the third method in the Ren Xue Yuan Gong system).
Shen=True Self
Stephanie Ross writes at the confluence of inner inquiry and the living world. Guided by her practice as Ren Xue Yuan Qigong teacher, she crafts poetry, fiction, and nonfiction that invites readers to relax, soften, and develop connection to heart and True Self.
Tempus
I repeat:
I am right on time for the good things.
I am not a nanosecond
too late to receive life’s bounty.
I don’t have the hubris to rush,
nor the silliness to dawdle.
As I walk toward my dreams,
they become demystified,
more physical and sensuous,
as real as porous flesh.
I am right on time to receive them.
*
The river refuses to run straight;
its meandering innocence restores faith.
I can trust the turns and dips,
hush the linear thinking & hyperactive ambition.
Step out of the dull throb of anthropocentric will.
A leaf floats in the periwinkle sky,
untroubled, and mapless.
*
I listen to the wind’s bodiless message
the mind has no translation for.
I open my eyes to the luminous nimbus of light.
The sky is a constant witness.
The soil is a consistent support.
The legs on this body know where to go,
guided by a deeper, capacious gnosis.
*
I walk forward, and in the movement of toward
lies the inevitable: change.
Roxanne Noor is a writer and editor living on a small island in Thailand. She's the founder of Nude Studio, a magazine that explores voluntary simplicity in a culture of excess. Her work has been published in Anti-Heroin Chic, Mixed Mag, Sunstroke Magazine, Nymphs, Uplift Connect, and Full Potential.
How Did I Get Here?
Middle of this January day,
walking Lily, six hundred miles north
of my Florida childhood home.
The grass crunches from the frozen
dew, and Lily runs ahead of me
in her red dog sweater. The sky
is the bluest I’ve ever seen.
The creek to my left glazed over.
How is it possible I could live
in such a beautifully, cold place?
Thirty years in St. Petersburg,
then Orlando, endless days of sweat
and sun, barely able to breathe
from the heat, and somehow I’m here
on what feels like the cusp of old age,
walking in three layers of clothes,
with my dog, in this park, a half mile
from home. In the heat of my youth,
I could never have imagined I’d be this happy.
It’s Only
while reading my Auntie Carol’s obituary
that I learned my father was also called Stevie,
a nickname my mother and sister, Kim, and her kids
still call me deep into my fifties. What else
don’t I know about my father? Did he like
working as a printer at the St Pete Times?
What did he think each morning when he woke?
Did he think, Another day at this fucking job?
Ten hours before I can have a beer?
Did he think of Kim and me asleep in our beds?
I’ve heard people say fathers are unknowable.
A father myself now, I’d like to think this isn’t true,
but I also know how much I keep inside,
tucked away from my wife and son.
After Buying a Watermelon Popsicle from a Cub Scout at Harris Teeter
Walking home, through the Carolina July heat,
the popsicle tasted like Florida, long sticky streets,
walks from my best friend Dennis’ house to mine,
swimming pools and palm trees, 52nd Street bike races,
and the Kapok tree where my cat, Sasha, once climbed
up and didn’t come down for eleven hours.
Third Wheel
When my wife says it’s time
to take away the tricycle
and let Trevor try a real bike, I say,
He’s not ready. That third wheel
is keeping him up, helping him gain
his strength and work on his balance.
She smiles, and does not say what she’s thinking,
Really, Steve, is that the best you got?
I know my argument is thin
and this isn’t about him riding a bike
without the safety provided by a third wheel,
but about what I’m willing to risk,
to let go of.
Steve Cushman has published three novels, including Portisville, winner of the 2004 Novello Literary Award. His first full-length collection, How Birds Fly, won the 2018 Lena Shull Book award. Cushman’s latest poetry collection, The Last Time, was published in 2023.
Freed by Dissonance
I saw heaven in the habitat before me.
In stillness I surveyed scenery.
Soundly, you slept.
Uneasy, I explored with soft eyes.
Studies enlightened me.
You sensed it; tectonic plates shifted.
My fingertips crept up mountains and into valleys.
They wove through paper white birch stubble;
a ghost forest, echoing lacerating verbiage.
My lips scraped across your crater rim;
a volcanic shaft that spewed pestilent proclamations.
Blinded by vog, I stumbled in dizzying dissonance
over furrows of fury,
scars of shamelessness,
wrinkles of regret.
Ages had sculpted your barren, sand-scorched scalp;
sediment filling follicles,
suffocating roots,
new shafts no longer springing.
Twisted thickets accentuated seductive cenote pools.
Surrendering, I slipped bare into their openings,
swiftly seared by stares of scorching blue.
Vapor that once warmed my body
now encased me with hoar frost;
freezing needles impaled me,
immobilized me.
Deep canals that once heard my pleas
became impenetrable with pernicious brambles.
Earth’s crust cracked,
slipping from lava-blistered flesh
rubbed raw from a forced façade.
The surface rupture ripped wider,
flinging me,
freeing me
from a biosphere where I never belonged.
Tracy Ahrens lives just south of Chicago, Illinois, and has been a journalist/writer for over thirty years. She has published ten books, including two non-fiction works, five children’s books, and three books of poetry. As of 2026 she had earned over 130 writing awards. See her website at www.tracyahrens.weebly.com.
Ecclesiastes 1:18
But in much wisdom is much grief
and growth of knowledge is sorrow.
To learn is to know this world is brief,
and in such wisdom is much grief,
for knowledge offers no relief
from the end that is ours tomorrow,
so in much wisdom is much grief
and growth of knowledge is sorrow.
Song of Songs 8:6
But love is as strong as death
and passion fierce as the grave.
Wisdom is to kiss each breath,
for love is as strong as death
and hesitance a shibboleth
of our fears. Oh, be brave,
for love is as strong as death
and passion fierce as the grave.
Brian McAllister is a retired academic who lives and writes in rural southern Georgia. Recent
poetry has appeared in Autumn Sky, Ancient Paths, Red Eft, and others.
The Sides
Part One— I Hear You
No worries. I hear you.
I feel your breath—
though mine has nowhere to go.
I only want to know
why you say that,
that no one is around,
and you are alone.
You are not alone.
I hear you.
I am where your voice arrives
and cannot stay.
It means we are not dead, yet—
at least, not both of us.
Part Two— If You Hear Me
Tell me that you are alive.
Tell me there is life again,
that we will meet some sunny,
or a dark and rainy day.
I am alone here. Loneliness is a kind of insanity.
I feel my own cold breath—
not on my skin, but somewhere
the walls remember.
Even the silence repeats my fears.
Maybe it means none of us are dead yet.
If you hear me, give me a sign.
Love is that sign, I know now.
When love is gone, we all will go.
The Sides – Explanation
The structure and the concept of the poem mirror the connection between the two realities. It is clean and intentional. For example, in part one, we see the clear emotional condition of a spirit on the other side— and its certainty, calm, presence. In part two, we see longing, doubt, and reaching.
The titles of the parts of this work already create tension: hearing vs. hoping to be heard. That’s a strong conceptual spine. One thing that works especially well is how both parts circle the same ideas: breath, voice, presence, aloneness, but from opposite sides of existence.
One voice knows, the other hopes. The voices and the emotional logic feel grounded in part one, when we see the monologue of a spirit from the other side, almost steady in its awareness of death. Part two feels human in the best way—slightly fragmented. Part one reassures without fully comforting, and part two asks without receiving a clear answer. That symmetry is what gives the poem life. Imagery and motifs are built as a quiet system of echoes. This is cohesive and effective. Nothing feels random.
The poem has the emotional and conceptual anchors—everything else orbits them, and everything depends on the poet’s intention—right now, it gives closure from the human side, because the relationship between the two parts is where the poem really succeeds. Part one says: a connection exists.
Part two asks: prove it. And the reader sits in the gap between them.
The poem doesn’t try to resolve the distance between the two voices—and that’s exactly why it works. It trusts the reader to feel the connection without closing the gap. Only love can do that.
David Dephy is an award-winning American poet, novelist, and multimedia artist. He is the founder of Poetry Orchestra. Named Poet-in-Residence for Brownstone Poets for 2024-2026, Dephy was exiled from his native country of Georgia and was granted indefinite political asylum in the U.S. He lives and works in New York.
Incomprehension
I have lost the energy to smooth
the shape of my body from my bed,
and I miss the January air's nifty trick
of filling itself with falling snow.
The girl across the alfalfa field climbed silos
to consider the heavens and her own
ten thousand impossible hereafters. She said,
The shards of starts shelter in improbable places.
The mourning doves she loved never landed
because the waters of Noah never receded.
They kept going more and more over the earth.
The waters resembled an unending river
but no one could find a bend, so we learned
to walk the floor of a flood. Even now,
fish cluster like asters and the shadows of birds
rush past on the surface far above us. Older folks
talk about how lucky we are, how it beats all hell
to sit at the bottom of a river just watching the rain fall,
but you can't see rainbows this far underwater.
Jacob Grussing works in county government in Shakopee, Minnesota, where he lives with his wife, children, and dog.
Longing Covers Me Like an Old Blanket
Longing covers me like an old blanket,
Comforting, yet worn by anguish.
The strain of union and separation
Tears at the threads of this fragile loom.
This partnership is frayed;
Uncertainty unravels
What holds me steady
As I press toward the Divine.
I yearn to be skillfully woven,
A tapestry made whole
By hands offering steady love.
Yet, I am the one who tears at the bond,
Fearing loss of self,
While God fastens each stitch,
Drawing me closer.
Encounter with Acorn
Walking on a bed of fallen leaves,
I suddenly notice you on the trail.
Bathing in sunlight, you prepare
To open yourself to a new level of awareness,
A moment when your shell falls away
And you begin your journey toward the sky.
I sense a profound intelligence
Delighting in removing your shell,
Freeing you to embrace your true identity,
A glorious tree one hundred feet tall.
I am aware of God breathing
As I hold you in my palm,
Each breath a beacon of the infinite intelligence
That will direct your majestic growth.
Tears fall softly on my face
As I recognize the intimate bond we share;
God’s love urges us to shed our shells
And express our vast life force
With courage and integrity.
David Block is a poet and retired nonprofit executive director whose work explores themes of mysticism, spirituality, and the human search for divine connection. His recent poems draw from contemplative practice and devotion, seeking to illuminate the presence of God’s love in everyday life. David's poetry appears in several issues of Soul Forte: A Journal for Spiritual Writing.
Slay Me, My Maker
Slay me, my maker, when you are through with me;
remove my shadow from the sun.
Do not cast a tender blow,
thy mighty force be done.
My resting place will be of no matter;
No peace, no comfort yet.
A potter’s grave will serve me well,
where wretches pay their debts.
Descending from the darkened skies,
where burning air halts breath,
will be hordes of angels in disguise;
they’ll poke and prod us yet.
They’ll strike their swords upon our hearts;
we’ll bleed but never die.
For lo, it is the wretch’s fate
to linger and survive.
Back in the earth where life is dead,
yet where the life survives,
the lives of wretches put on hold—
half‑buried, half alive.
I’ll keep company with the wretch—
why must he go alone?
What makes me one to feel the sun,
and him to give the groan?
Slay me, my maker, when you are through with me;
bring out your mighty sword.
Wipe my blood with a wretch’s cloth,
sacrifice be my reward.
Lessie Ehrhardt is a poet based in Charleston, South Carolina. Lessie writes poetry attentive to life’s journey, transformation, and moral resilience. Her work seeks to offer clarity and empowerment amid darkness, honoring endurance, faith, and human dignity. She values restraint, ethical seriousness, and language that bears witness while remaining hopeful forward.
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