
Thank you for visiting Issue 18 of Soul Forte, featuring writing by Katlyn Shea Sweeney, Cleopatra Sorina Iliescu, Kata Hyvärinen, LaToya Young, Daniel Skach-Mills, Harry Liantziris, Amrita Skye Blaine, Dipesh Parajuli, Yuko Mulugetta, Chadwick Rowland, JB Felix, Pramod Lad, and Michael McIrvin. Read and resurrect.
Issue 18 cover art:
"Newcomers," by Debbie Benson. Ink on paper.
An Elegy
An elegy for the water that baptizes you in holiness.
An elegy for the hopes that part diamonds across your lips when you smile.
An elegy for the real times you cried out to God and He heard you.
An elegy for the chorus that broke you holy as a musical note across a hymnal.
An elegy for the way his mouth moved when he stood convicted against an unforgiving sky.
An elegy for the days that stacked on top of one another, stretching out like a book, forming the longest pages.
An elegy for the sound you made when you realized he would never really love you, that agonizing ache that started in your diaphragm and made its way into the lining of your lungs.
An elegy for how you hoped against hope for a different outcome, but trusting God to know what is best.
An elegy for strangled heartbeats, for how can it bear to beat without him?
An elegy for drowning in the same water you surrendered yourself to, and trusting God to pull you out of a depression you could never heal for yourself.
An elegy for the way you could stand on the shore again, and stand so tall, it’s almost like you’ve grown an inch.
An elegy for healing your lungs from the screams that escaped you like air being let out of a balloon.
An elegy for the devotion of the Savior to His sheep who stray from Him, to leave the 99 to find you.
An elegy for zealously surrendering to Him with everything you have in you.
An elegy for ancient wonders caught in the Father’s arms and not ever wanting to depart from there.
An elegy for the feeling of being so at peace with yourself, knowing that you are greatly and deeply loved by the Creator of the Universe.
An elegy for wanting to always stay in His presence.
An elegy for His beauty backlit against a moonless sky.
An elegy for the feeling of being completely seen and known by God.
An elegy for your life being offered up as an offering to a holy and perfect God.
An elegy for ending your life with God saying well done good and faithful servant, and knowing you ran the race well set before you.
The Sky Starts
The sky starts where you first found peace
amongst the chaos of a fallen world.
Each constellation paints itself shimmering
against the great nothingness of space.
I track it all with my fluttering eyes—
chaos bold beneath the hope
that a fallen world will right itself.
Yet the hope of a Savior looms expectant,
hanging in the air like He hung on that Cross.
My lungs shred with cries when a great
burst of light shoots out of that nothingness.
My Savior is here!
And He is here to right the havoc
that the world presents itself.
With love in His eyes, He stands tall
and gets to work.
I Thought of You
Long after I painted the horizon
hot against my memory,
long after I planted the trees lush
with their fruit and hung the stars
haphazardly with the brush of my fingertips,
long after the sun hung scorched above
a midday sky,
and the birds of the air flicker from tree to tree
like messengers I plant just for me,
long after the water bore its creatures of varying sizes,
whales and starfish, dolphins and turtles,
long after my lungs crafted the air, the sky,
the atmosphere all around them,
long after I pronounced it was all very good:
I thought of you.
You with your bold and tenacious spirit,
your absolute resolve to create words,
to strike a match and give light to all
those around you.
You with your beauty, sometimes hidden
from sight yet still shining from your spirit.
You with your great love for Me, for My
Creation, for slowly bringing your family
to know My Son.
I thought of you, sweet daughter.
Even before you were created,
I thought of you.
My Body Is a Temple
My body is a temple.
My body is a tower crumbling.
My body is his receptable.
My body is his play thing.
My body is his spit cup.
My body is his jar of loose change.
My body is a canvas.
My body is a paintbrush.
My body is the last drop of muddy paint.
My body is the last bit of toothpaste in the tube.
My body is flayed meat.
My body is sinking rocks in a tank.
My body is a burnt out sparkler.
My body is a stomped on flower.
My body is a broken crayon.
My body is a myth.
My body is a temple.
Katlyn Shea Sweeney has been enchanted with writing since the fifth grade, when her teacher held up a piece for the whole class to see. She has a bachelor's degree in Creative Writing with a Minor in Religion from Central Michigan University. She someday would love to travel the world and write about her adventures. Her day job is to take care of someone living with a disability. Her best friend is her twin sister.
A Vision of Wings
In hiding,
on a branch of a tree,
in a garden,
I waited so long
in my cocoon,
full of hope
to finally emerge.
It didn’t happen.
Now that I think,
under layers of warm silk,
perhaps it is not a butterfly
that I am preparing to surface,
but something else
altogether –
a surprise.
The process of becoming
no matter what,
in a cocoon,
hanging still,
on a branch of a tree . . .
When Spring Comes
She lives in a place
where there is too much winter,
for far too long.
It is atop a mountain,
not at the end of the world.
Silence rises each morning
with the mist.
Yet, it is there that
the purest water stream
found an opening
to emerge and flow
under the glacier,
under the snow.
And she runs –
a lone wolf –
from one stark peak
to the next,
watching patiently
togetherness unfolding
down below
and above,
clouds running freely.
And sometimes she howls.
Oh,
but when spring finally comes . . .
A Fall into the Sky
On the brink
of a most worthwhile rim
one could possibly
position herself –
to see the beauty she is
the same as she witnesses it
in everybody and everything else,
not from not noticing
and accounting for
the imperfection
beauty encompasses,
but precisely despite it
and because of it.
It is like the beauty uncovered
by the tree with a broken branch,
exuding
a different kind of harmony,
deeper,
unique
because of her willingness
to grow whole,
toward the sky,
despite her brokenness.
True beauty lies
with the wound,
in the wound.
And she wants to fall
with all her heart
over the edge
she finds herself standing,
like a bird must plunge
before opening her wings.
The wind blows…
Blue Infinity
She wishes her skin was blue,
blue like a blue opal,
blue like Lapis Lazuli,
blue like the sky,
and blue like the water –
a blue openly seen.
She would have walked earth,
still marginalized,
still at the periphery,
still hidden in the veil
between exclusion and inclusion,
yet clear of her difference –
not a deserved difference,
not a wrong difference,
but with a visible distinction,
nevertheless.
Hidden in the veil
between exclusion and inclusion,
the argument lies
in the invisible color of her soul –
blue like a blue opal,
blue like Lapis Lazuli,
blue like the sky,
and blue like the water.
In the silence of mountain heights,
she breathes alone, keeping distance,
wishing the human world
would be less grey
and more . . .
Cleopatra Sorina Iliescu is a poet living in Atlanta, Georgia. Her poems and art have been widely published, most notably in her longtime supporters, Soul Forte: A Journal for Spiritual Writing and Mukoli: The Magazine for Peace. In her current series of sixty poems, "Within an Open-Ended Paradox," she explores the contradictions inherent in identity and becoming. The endings are intentionally open, allowing tension to breathe and vulnerability to remain visible on the page.
Every Time It's the Nature
Every time it’s the Nature
that welcomes you the dearest
surrounding the universal being in its overwhelming glory
of the simplest, yet tremendously complex
way of existing in your most comfortable layer.
This is my original self. Which
involves so many abandoned layers of unnecessary habits
and stuck emotions, but yet,
here
the ultimate complexity of humanness finds me.
Fills me with dozens of mosquito bites that are
more comforting than the pain they anticipate.
Getting pampered in the lack of manmade noise.
Feeling the pleasure of the hospitality of the loved ones,
the comfort of being – again – surrounded by the familiar;
the Nature, the inner Warmth, Nature’s beauty and
the Language.
Home.
The treacherous longing for the past while living in the present with its unique
challenges.
I might not belong here anymore, but right here my emptiness feels in its place,
and something in me gets fulfilled in a way that, for a moment, I, once more, can let go
of the idea of the past being superior to the present.
Here I can be me, but not only here.
The Future is supposed to be unknown and finally
that pleases me.
Kata Hyvärinen is a Finnish teacher, linguist, and an avid reader who found bilingual poems coming out of her after living in the U.S. for ten years. She still speaks, talks, and reads mainly in Finnish, so her poems are an interesting outlet for the second language. Her dream is to get a long novel published -- in Finnish of course!
Rain is Quiet
Sometimes rain feels like tears
The sky and I both break
In storms
But after rain
after tears
LaToya Young is a writer and student in Washington, DC.
After the Diagnosis
days still begin with tea,
end with a prayer and candle
lit in praise of Guan Yin
and her thousand arms
which, as weeks weaken
and days die down,
support me more
and more.
Crows, years,
both fly past without our knowing
where they’ve come from
or where they’re going.
Clouds, hair,
both pass white over our heads,
then vanish without a trace.
Not knowing where paths might lead
seems reason enough to set aside certainty,
live less as thinking, more as landscape.
Every shaded path, or pool of rain:
Po Chui’s perfect place
to loosen the knot of your name.
Little wonder lines lean now
toward shorter sentences, I-less stanzas.
Tao Ch’ien’s poems come to mind:
his words a wilderness
that doesn’t need us.
Anchoress
Julian of Norwich (ca.1342-1416 CE)
Thrice
before my Showings,
before my thirtieth year,
I awaken in darkness
to darkness—
Black Death, pestilence,
plague-carts rattling
like bones in the street,
the clanging bell
and cart-driver’s cry:
Bring out your dead!
*
Twenty years later,
my solitary life as anchoress—
St Julian’s Church in Norwich,
where locals call me:
Lady Julian—
precious
prayerful
presence
prized
by the city.
Where, from my
hazelnut-anchorhold
I proffer kernels of comfort,
compassion, counsel,
to passersby who seek
my open window, heart, ear—
my assurance all shall be well
and all manner of thing,
however small,
shall be well,
the yes in my eyes
enfolding in Love
whoever
whatever
needs.
*
No before,
nor after.
Just this.
What I was
who I was
uprooted
like burdock
herbal purifier
broken open
by Mother-Christ’s
compassion.
Broken open
for poultice,
for healing.
anchorhold: a cell, usually attached to a church, where an anchoress (female recluse) lived.
Showings: (or Shewings) visions, recorded in Julian’s book, Revelations of Divine Love, first book written in English by a woman (ca.1400 CE).
hazelnut: Julian’s famous vision of a hazelnut (symbol for all creation). Small, fragile, it endures because God created it and loves it.
Silentium
its own
cloistered secret
Doesn’t tell
Not a whisper
Sunrise
utterly unuttered,
dawning before,
beyond words
Prayers
unspilled, unspelled,
tucked tongueless
inside tears,
heartbreak
truth
No chant
One monk
Holy
used to mean
hymns, chant,
not so much getting words,
but harmony right, all together,
a few well-blended
seconds, minutes
singing God like birds do
without even trying
is what sacred is, sounds like,
when nobody’s listening, looking,
making us do it,
we find the right branch, our own,
up high or low, doesn’t matter
what religion a tree is
because, well, branches
(all Daoist) might describe it like this:
Red Finch, White-crowned Sparrow,
whatever song the next bird
does or doesn’t bring.
A 2026 Pushcart prize nominee, Daniel Skach-Mills’s poetry is forthcoming in The Pensive Journal and Wild Roof Review. His book, The Hut Beneath the Pine, was a 2012 Oregon Book Award finalist. A former Trappist monk, Daniel lives in Portland, Oregon, where he served fifteen years as a docent for Lan Su Chinese Garden.
There are connections
(when there are two)
To click or not to click
to click into place
To feel an instant connection
easy and natural
Effortless and true
The first meeting
the first time we met
“I like you”
“I like talking to you”
I said to myself
Did the other feel this way?
Was there energy between us?
What about understanding?
Did it flow both ways?
Later that night
an intense feeling
A feeling of light
of reaching high
“Love and Light”
as some say
Once again
“I like you”
“I like talking to you”
and being with you
I do
As for connecting
we’re one
You step
I step
We step together
as one
We did so
when we said goodbye
A few questions remained
What connects us to others?
Will I see them again?
The universe does
Not a cold mechanistic one
but a conscious Being
that knows what we need
Love
Companionship
Friends
As the saying goes
“the universe provides”
A well-used cliché
but true
Always true
Always
Harry Liantziris is an emerging writer: a part-time poet and a non-fiction writer on spirituality. The former includes a science fiction poem in an anthology. He sees the world as a connected whole, a fully integrated system that should make room for everyone. If only.
Toward Peace
Peace is not something to be found outside; it must be cultivated from within. Even in a divided world, peace is possible—not because the world changes, but because our hearts change. —Venerable Bhikkhu Pannakara, leading the Walk for Peace
I drop my rocketing
thoughts of headlines,
imagine a quiet glen—
deer forage, flicking
their little white tails.
They lift their heads,
attentive—ample ears
swivel, tails gone still.
Fox, slinking along
the margin of the woods
no threat, they return
to graze.
That quiet, that peace,
breathing each one of us.
Mind pivots back to news
a soft Let’s set that down.
Cleansing breath
begins again—
hundreds of times a day.
Octogenarian
a villanelle
Growing old is not so very tender
gravity’s relentless pull to ground
and yet there is a kind of splendor
As the body falls apart, is spent, or
eventually ends up bed-bound
Growing old is not so very tender
The mind softens toward surrender
loses proper names, then nouns
and yet there is a kind of splendor
in hearts dropping their defender
stance, and softening into newfound—
Growing old is not so very tender
Creakiness as time grows slender
physical challenges all around
and yet there is a kind of splendor
Courage is required as we’re rendered
Straighten tall, picture a queenly crown
growing old is not so very tender
and yet there is a kind of splendor
Be Kind
It is about . . . behaving as beautifully as one can under completely impossible circumstances. —Toni Morrison
The snail creeping
across the road,
a few seconds to move it.
An elderly woman, struggling,
her grocery cart
caught on the steps,
Five minutes to offer
a hand, warm greeting
I may be the only person
she speaks with today.
This life, cruel, radiant,
painful, rare, shockingly
short
The call:
impossible circumstances
behave beautifully now
Light to Light
In this ramble life
filled with sorrows,
my far-flung friends
cast poems like lights
from hand to hand
It’s how we cope,
lofting seeds
into the ether
sprinkling love
through the dark
A net of light,
each of us a node
imagine it
dream it
see
Amrita Skye Blaine develops themes of impermanence, disability, awakening, and the state of our world. Two collections came out Spring 2025. She has been published in sixteen poetry anthologies, numerous literary magazines, and is a 2025 Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net Anthology nominee.
For the first time today!
I saw the sky for the first time today—
not as blue,
not as vast,
not as the ceiling of thought or faith—
but simply sky,
without meaning,
without a name.
It felt like infinity,
it stole my breath—
a sky unchained,
beyond all death.
I saw the grass for the first time today—
not as green,
not as soft,
not as comfort for weary feet.
But fiercely alive,
breathing softly beneath me.
I saw the cloud for the first time today—
not as white,
not as drifting,
not as something passing overhead.
But tenderly wild,
shaping itself with the wind’s own pulse.
I met an old friend today—
though we had no memories to reach for,
no past encounters to lean upon.
Just two beings,
arriving in the same moment,
breathing the same slice of time.
We didn’t need many words.
The silence between us
was enough to acknowledge
each other's existence.
And I saw myself in the mirror today—
not as someone burdened with guilt,
not as a complaint,
not as a name to protect,
but silent, aware, and observant.
Simply a soul in the skin.
For once,
I didn’t want to change it.
I saw the illusion
and that seeing
was enough.
Dipesh Parajuli a poet based in Virginia, USA. He has been writing poems for many years. He sees poetry as the most spiritual form of expression. Rooted in meditation and mindfulness, his work reflects his ongoing journey as a spiritual seeker.
The Voice from the Patio
You always sat there,
the seasoned, white wooden chair
on the patio.
The chair facing
the tall Douglas firs
neatly lined up
in the backyard.
All moving in the late-summer breeze,
just before sunset,
their leaves shining in the last light of the day,
as if smiling at their only audience.
“Yuko, the trees are dancing for me. Come and join me,”
your deep, joyful voice calling.
I always answered from the kitchen,
wondering how the trees could even dance,
half-smiling at your words.
“I will be there soon,
when your favorite soup is ready.”
I kept stirring the soup,
hoping you’d turn your head.
I was still a child,
unaware
of the meaning of your gentle invitation
to breathe together with the dancing trees.
I was ready to come to you,
to watch the dancing trees.
You were no longer there
to share that moment.
Abraham, you already knew
how close your destiny was—
no fear,
no doubt,
while I turned away, unable to see it clearly.
Now I look at the empty patio chair,
longing for you
to call me once again,
“Yuko, trees are dancing for us. Come and join me,”
and for me to answer,
“Yes, Abraham, I am coming to sit with you.”
I wish—
though not possible,
to sit together and
watch
the majestic trees
dancing
in the late summer breeze,
just one more time.
The Lemon Tree
On the day after
his Oakwood case was covered with cold black soil,
our daughter gave me,
a small lemon tree about one foot tall.
So ordinary,
skinny tree with only green leaves,
in a black plastic pot
sitting on the sill of the window of the white bathroom,
the tiny tree facing the tall, impressive buildings of the City,
far from home, sitting alone.
I drank tea without company,
I watered the tree,
only friend, trying to survive in a plastic pot.
One morning,
a small green fruit hanging on a skinny tree branch,
white flowers perfuming,
in bright spring sunlight.
I continued to water the tree,
a small green fruit grew,
becoming
a yellow lemon just like one in a grocery bag,
still hanging on the tree branch,
almost time to let it go.
I will harvest your fruit tomorrow
for tea,
and we will drink it together.
The bright sunlight,
the blue sky,
over the tall, impressive buildings.
Born in Japan, Yuko Mulugetta spent her professional life in the U.S. as a statistician. Married for over forty years to the late Dr. Mulugetta of Ethiopia, she carries forward his faith in love, trust, and compassion. After loss, she returned to meditation, discovering poetry, bridging East, West, and Africa.
Ad Flumen
Author’s Note for Ad Flumen
A Lenten reflection through a Dantean lens, where desire is purified, the heart is read, and what once bound falls away.
And time’s bare barbed hand
on midnight strikes again;
pulls its thread ever thin,
lines trace beneath skin.
Asperges me, Asperges me
circles now resoundingly
Dim light through thick mist falls,
echoes from banquet halls,
to unreal realms beneath,
silent trees in ivy sheathed.
Asperges me, Asperges me
searches ever longingly
Spring’s love, elegant and fair,
through Winter’s cold rendered bare;
wanders now in empty Dis,
lone lament for all it missed.
Asperges me, asperges me
sifting sighs knowingly
Faint murmurs rise and spread,
a heart soon truly read.
Waters wash all I hide —
past that no longer binds.
Asperges me, Asperges me
River Lethe calls for me.
Chadwick Rowland is a Catholic writer and attorney based in Washington, D.C. A recent convert, he writes at the intersection of longing, memory, and grace. His poetry is shaped by pilgrimage, silence, and surrender.
Kailash
The abode of Shiva,
the centre of the universe—
a repository of knowing
and unknowing as much.
A mountain
as much seen
as it remains
undiscovered,
utterly ungraspable,
and yet
absolutely relatable—
through something
it touches
from within,
the core
of us each:
a void—
that refuses to be filled
by anything
less than nothing;
a possibility—
that outlives belief,
stays unalloyed
by culture or faith.
Not just
out there—
Kailash
is
what rises
within.
Insufferable
Rivers of wine
flowing shoreless—
to get drunk
without drowning,
or a trace of hangover.
Food to sate
every appetite
without a cook,
a recipe-book,
or the burden
of gluttony.
Woods and winds
whistling melodies
needing no instrument,
nor practice.
Wishing trees
granting desires
before they are wished—
not needing to wait
for ambition or planning.
Worry, a thing of the past.
Tomorrow that looks
exactly like Yesterday,
the selfsame
as Today.
No weekdays,
no weekends,
no counting down
to holidays
to escape.
Time wearing out
only itself.
What if it was
the monotony
of eternity
that made us die—
for a stint at life?
To feel the ache
of a stubbed toe,
and a heartbreak.
To hear the noise
of crickets, traffic,
dogs howling
for no reason at night.
To feel fear—
of loss,
of death,
of suffering itself—
the very price
we agreed to pay
for a brief trip
out of
the insufferable
eternity.
Undistracted
Not so much
the act itself—
not even its consequences,
you could perhaps fend.
It is the thin
veneer of guilt
that you so
easily shed,
and the thick
coat of justification
you paint
your intents with—
layering reasons
upon excuses
to ready yourself
to indulge yet again.
That is
the true
and the only
sin—
against the possibility
that waits within—
for you to remain
undistracted.
Neurologist by profession, poet by accident, and seeker by choice, JB Felix’s work explores the immensities of time, consciousness, and the state of being. The poems move between the intimate and the cosmic, dissolving the boundaries between self and world, often carried by a contemplative musicality and a lyrical voice distinctive to Felix’s style. Writing about presence, perception, and the subtle transformations that shape a life, Felix draws on an introspective clarity that reaches quiet philosophical depths—where observation meets wonderment.
Ballooned
What was it? A bump that grew and grew?
So when she said “My God I can’t stop
Ballooning” it made sense at last. How
Could she have swallowed one so large, keep
It fixed in place? His balloons tugged and flew.
Then all that he thought he knew blew its top.
Over decades again and again he came to know
How invisible lives popped, their deep
Secrets opened. He grew afraid of birthdays
Those familial bursts, how could he guess
Which ones camouflaged new monsters?
Years ushered in younger balloons. Then play
Shriveled. Now that a smaller self-mattered less,
Might he, cocooned tight, sail into thin air.
Pramod Lad was born in India and has a Ph.D. in biochemistry from Cornell University. His poems have been accepted in Wilderness House Literary Review, Eclectica, The Innisfree Poetry Journal, The Umbrella Factory, The Pulsebeat Poetry Journal, Pennine Platform, Litbreak Magazine, Amethyst Review, Soul Forte: A Journal for Spiritual Writing, Creations Magazine, Penwood Review, Neologism, Verse Virtual, and elsewhere.
You Are a Penitent Walking . . .
one eye on the weather, the other on the way forward, your mind on the library of your failures. You want your life to be different and so strain to calibrate your awareness to the season, the shade of blue most likely above you tomorrow, the smell of sausage cooking in the diner you pass.
But you can’t help wishing, just for a moment, it all meant something beyond the fact of it. A memory, loaded with dark energy, threatens to explode inside you, a glimpse of domesticity in a place just short of utterly wild. You focus on your footsteps as you step from the curb and over asphalt and the thought passes like a small fit.
There can be no solace as long as you carry the past like a sack of bones, as long as this wandering is not for its own sake. The air afire with locust blossom scent, birds belting out their ancient blues, children laughing in the register of joy. Cars passing just cars passing. You, a human walking, one eye on the weather, the other on the way forward.
Learning to Pray
Approaching darkness is the gate
through which the birds of omen
enter your life. Beauty in their beaks,
blood in their song: the cryptic
tale of your time here,
all that is spinning away.
You want to love the birds,
their flight full of wonder
and anger and something
close to wisdom, the bright
faces of the lost. Full
of what passes through
your mind at the sight
of them, the sound.
You want to shout
accompaniment as night
settles so deep your breath
is thunder, heartbeat a storm,
every blink of your burning
eyes a tsunami of being
you can barely withstand:
the possibilities.
But the chorus is a repetition of loss
and of love-in-spite, words
even a three-year-old can repeat
as chant and prayer but beyond
your ability now to hear them clearly,
let alone sing them: love, suffering, joy.
You hold your breath, swing
your arms wildly as you spin
circles. You settle for humming
to equal rough birdsong, the cries
of ravens or crows maybe, dying
doves, and one day perhaps, years
later, you hope to manage a few meager
words of praise: Birth, you will say. Death.
Under the turning sky you remind
yourself the day will come
when the birds don’t arrive,
the sacred transubstantiated
to silence that reaches beyond
the stars. You want to be grateful
for what is, including all your losses.
Love, you will finally say. Suffering.
Joy.
Michael McIrvin is the author of several poetry collections, including Optimism Blues: Poems Selected and New and Hearing Voices (Fearful Symmetry, 2020). His most recent novel is The Blue Man Dreams the End of Time. Michael lives on the High Plains of Wyoming.
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